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Summer Sayings…

I love that a few of my blogger buddies are good about documenting funny things their kids say. I know this stage will fly by and I want to soak it all in. I’ve started trying to take some notes to remind myself of what they say and I’m going to be moving some things from facebook over here, too, to save.
Here are some of their summer sayings…
– Lou, at preschool, was asked about her new pink room: “Lou, did you paint your room pink?” She declared (in her all her sassy glory): “OH, NO!” (and with a wave of her little hands) “Some Paint-uhs, painted it fuh me!”
– Cbug, upon arriving at the hospital to see his baby brother for the first time, touched my belly and then we had this conversation:
Cbug: “Momma, baby C came out of your belly, right?”
Me: Yes, Baby, he did.
Cbug: (while squishing my leftover baby chub) Well, is there one more smaller baby still in there?
– I asked KJ what kind of back-pack he would like for school. I thought I had him pegged. He would want spiderman (fav superhero) or green (fav color). Instead, he said,”I’d like a green back pack with my name in blue and a cheetah on it”. Um, ok. I guess you’ve thought about this a little. Note-to-self, you need to narrow the choices for your uber-planner of an oldest child.

– Lou’s favorite phrase right now is BOOYAH! She uses it to declare extreme excitement (“Booyah, I’ve got a princess plate”), to indicate that she is proud of herself (“I got myself dressed, BOOYAH!”) or just when she doesn’t know what else to say. It cracks me up when mid-sentence she forgets what she was about to say and instead just smiles and says BOOYAH, throwing her hands in the air, and then walks off.

– Cbug is VERY literal right now. If you say it is about time to go, he is already in the van. If you say he can be finished eating, he is UP from the table and gone. So phrases from adults like “you are killing me” are not really best used in his presence- found that out the hard way.

– Lou got some nasty ant bites and for weeks has milked the fact that they were bothering her. Her favorite line was “I need a drink of wat-uh. My daddy said the doc-tuh wants me to have a lot of wat-uh to make my ant bites healed.” Cbug, upon hearing her say this recently, decided to correct her. “Nuh-uh, sister. The doctors are wrong. Only God can heal you.” Bless his sweet little literal heart.

– Then there was the time my own words about waiting until 30 to get married came back to bite me in this conversation with KJ-
o KJ: “Mom, how old were you had me?”
o Me: “About 27 ½”

o KJ (in sheer shock): “WHAAAAAAAATTT???? How could you have a baby before you were old enough to get married?”

– Lou is a little Mommy by nature. She mothers her younger brother AND her older ones. Recently, she was in the car with her cousin C (who is actually 6 months older) and was reassuring and petting her: “ev-uh-thing is just fine. I’ve really missed you and I’m so glad you ah visiting me. Ev-uh-thing is fine.”

– On the fourth of July weekend, we were in Nashville with my parents and decided to go the fireworks show at their church. The boys were not crazy about this idea, so their mini-momma said “Well, one of you can sit in Nonna’s lap and one of you can sit with Papa J.” I asked her “what about you, Lou?” to which she responded (with her signature wave of the hand)“Oh, they ah the ones that ah sca-uhed, I’m not sca-uhed” And she was true to that word, too.

– We went to KJ’s new school for address verification. On the way there he was very curious about what “verification” meant so we talked about giving proof. When we went inside, they asked us for the “documents” and KJ proceeded to give them complete directions to our house from the school. Yep, that proves it.

– We pulled in to Chkn Express the other night to grab something quick before we had to be at a school function. Cbug yelled from the back seat, “I don’t want to eat here. This is chicken fried and chicken fried is not healfy food.” We went to Subway.

– One of my favorite things for Lou to play is when she has “vite-overs”, and invites each of us to come to her room. She asked her brother to come for a vite-over, though, and Cbug responded “Today I am King. And kings don’t go to vite-overs”

– All of the kids are obsessed with Nashville. They love visiting Nonna and Papa J and especially love that we are always on “vacation” while we are there. This means they get to do things like eat places mommy doesn’t usually like to go, play Wii, stay up late, etc. So…KJ: “I’m going to celebrate my birthday in Nashville. Because Nonna likes Chuck E Cheese” and Cbug “I’m sorry you won’t get to see me when I grow up. I’m going to live in Nashville beside Nonna and Papa J.”
-RRL called me into the bathroom while Lou was taking a bath.  He said “tell Mommy what you are doing?” to which she responded “Just shavin’ my legs”.  She was using her brothers plastic pretend razor to shave.
– Cbug works “which is” into nearly every sentence, and when he says “which is” he often raises his pointer finger for emphasis. Why make a sentence simple when you can add complexities? For example, instead of saying “May I have some cereal?” or “I’m going to build a firetruck”, or “I’m going to play with KJ”… CBug usually asks “May I have something for breakfast, which is cereal?” or “I’m going to build something with my legos, which is a firetruck?” or “I’m going to play with my brother, which is KJ.”

I’m excited to start keeping some of these snippets of memories.  And my friends will be glad I have an outlet other than telling them everything my kids say.  It is certainly hard to contain yourself when you believe your kids to be brilliant and hysterical.  What mom doesn’t?

ABL

Three going on 13!

Oh my oh my.  If this is THREE, I can.not.imagine what having a teen aged girl will be like.  Oh the drama, or the sassiness, oh the disobedience.  And in the same breath- oh the joy, oh the laughter, oh the LOVE.  Our little (big) Lou is all that and more.  She’s been three for less than a week and has fully embraced it.  Then again she was “almost three” for months so its better that we just made it official.
On her birthday weekend we were traveling, her Daddy was heading out to camp and her biggest brother was S-I-C-K.  She spent the day just playing with Cbug at Nonna’s house and actually having an AWESOME time.  But as she went to sleep that night she put her sweet little arms around me and said “Oh, Momma, all I wanted today was just to have cake on a princess plate”.  Oh dear.  I mean, yes, she blew out a candle on her donut and opened presents before Daddy left.  But it just wasn’t what her little princess heart had in mind.  It crushed me.  No, it was not the end of the world, but I really do LOVE getting to make a big deal out of my kids’ birthdays.  So you better believe, the next night we had pizza and you guessed it- princess cupcakes on princess plates.  She was delighted.  And that was the end of that.

Sweet Princess Lou-

I surely love you.  I love the pink. I love the bows. I love the strut.  I love the princess heels. And I love that with all of that you can yell BOO-YAH at the top of your lungs, wrestle with your brothers and Daddy, run “super fast” and play super heroes.  You are one of a kind, sweet sister.  And we are so glad you are ours!
You’ve really enjoyed getting to go to preschool this year.  When you started, last fall, you fully embraced the fact that you were the oldest in the class.  You translated “oldest” as “teacher’s-official-helper” and did your very best to keep the rest of the class in line.  I’m sure all of your friends appreciated that.  What’s so funny is, that even though your tiny self might weigh 20 pounds (wet), your confidence makes up for your size.  And people listen to you because of that!  You are not afraid to voice your opinion, stand up for yourself, or explain how you think things need to be done.  We are working to develop a little grace and some key phrases like “please don’t do that” and “I have an idea” which sound just a touch less bossy 🙂

You are oh so helpful around our house.  I can just be cooking dinner and you will come in to help set the table, clean up messes, or cook.  You are so perceptive at seeing what needs to be done.  And, even when I don’t tell you or act otherwise, I do love having you by my side!  I also love watching you with your baby brother.  I’m pretty sure if you were just a little bigger, and therefore able to lift him, you could pretty well take care of him on your own.  You seem to know what his cries mean and are quick to let me know what he needs.  One of my favorite sites in the rearview mirror is you singing to him, reading him a story or holding his hand.  You also still LOVE it when your cousins come to visit.  You and your cousin C are good buddies, and I love how you help take care of her and make her feel welcome at our home. You never seem to mind sharing your bed, sharing your clothes, or sharing your toys.  You amaze me!
Your vocabulary, combined with your sweet southern drawl (enhanced by your lack of “r” sounds), make you a JOY to be with in a conversation.  I love the way you think through things and explain them.  AND I love it when you get words confused. Like when you want me to go faster and tell me to “Go speedy lemon” while driving (instead of “speed limit”). You say “Problems” instead of “Proverbs” when learning scripture.  You like me to “scrub” your back at night, which to you means a combination of scratching and rubbing.  Or, a recent favorite, is hearing you say “Let’s ROLL and ROCK!”
You love your Daddy.  Boy HOWDY do you love your Daddy.  And he is pretty smitten, too.  He’s not much of a shopper, but I’ve seen him come home with more splurges over the last 3 years than ever before.  He spoils you, for sure, but you also respect him.  I’m so thankful he is showing you how a man treats a lady by the example he sets in loving me and loving you.  Especially since you already have a couple of little boys that claim you will one day marry.  Oh, help us!
We love you, princess.  You are a joy and delight.  You are as cheerful as your favorite color, pink. And you are the perfect balance to our house full of boys.  On this birthday, we pray that you will always continue to use your perceptiveness in helping, your joy in giving, and your strong confidence to bless others and bring glory to your Maker.
Sugar, I love you more than sugar.  And that is A LOT!

Momma

SIX!

KJ is S-I-X!!
Sweet-thang had his big day right in the midst of some major craziness for our family- moving out, end of school, weekend visit from cousins, new baby, CRAZY.  SO, it didn’t get blogged.  The day did happen, and I think as far as he is concerned, it was special.  We celebrated (multiple times), but the big day did not get its proper justice here, on our family’s little memory timeline.  And that just won’t do.  I was feeling some Mommy guilt about this little blip. But then- one of my favorite bloggers (Kelly @ 30…Really???), just by being her sweet Mommy-self, reminded me that it’s never too late to share with your children, and the blog-reading world, what you love about them at this age.  So, here we go…
(and stay tuned for Princess Lou is 3.  Also skipped here)

Dearest KJ-
For the entire year from your fifth birthday to your sixth, life for our family has been a bit of a whirlwind.  It has been full of adventures, adjustments, transitions, fun, and unexpected LIFE.  That is important to share in this letter because you, my big boy, have been AMAZING through it all.  So much about you is not naturally flexible.  You love rules (for example: your “health” teacher at preschool mentioned that 10 almonds a day are good for the heart.  And you do ALL you can to eat those 10 almonds. Every.single.day).  You love things to be in order.  You like to know what is coming next.  You are a lot like me in that way.  Which is why it is even more admirable that you have been able to adapt and adjust so frequently.  And not just adapt, but really excel.  You have totally taken on a responsibility and care for others that is well beyond your years.  And you are so responsible.  You’ve really started taking care of yourself (showering, brushing teeth, getting dressed) and of course, I love to see you watch out for your siblings.  You are especially helpful with baby C.  I can completely trust you to hold him and help take care of him.  You have no idea how much it helps me that you are so helpful.  Someday you will, though, and I hope you get to have an oldest child just like you to return the favor.

Your imagination is priceless.  I love watching you create games and playworlds for your brother and sister to join you in.  Whether it be pillow forts, Star Wars characters, pretend “moving” or acting out Bible stories, you always manage to find something to entertain yourself and others with.  You also love ANYTHING electronic right now.  Most things you know how to operate better than I do.  Much more like your Daddy in that regard.  You also like to combine your love for pretend with your love for reading and learning as you put together NUMEROUS lego creations.  You especially like to play leggos when Daddy plays, too.
Even more pretend worlds have opened to you as you have learned to read.  It is absolutely amazing to me how quickly you have gone from sounding out words to reading stories to all of us.  You have a love for learning that I pray continues flourish.  As a result, you have inherited a bit of your momma’s nerdy-ness and love talking about things like patterns, numbers, math, and meanings of words.  I love watching your curiosity develop for new things.  Even if I do sometimes have to suggest that maybe we’ve answered enough questions for the afternoon 🙂  You totally ROCKED “practice” kindergarten this year.  I can’t wait to see you excel in “big school” this fall.  AND you can’t wait because there “won’t be naptime”.  We’ll see.
I also love that one of your favorite things to do right now is worship.  You recently left VBS saying “that worship was SO.MUCH.FUN” and some of your favorite music to listen to includes MWSmith, RHCC praise band, and Fernando Ortega.  Which means I love to listen to music with you!  You also have applied your love for learning to bible verse memorization.  This week at VBS you learned a couple of new verses and I was amazed how quickly you memorized them…and then taught them to the rest of us.  We are all reaping the benefits of your love for God’s word.  Thanks, little man!
It doesn’t seem to bother you a bit that you are still very small in stature.  Your heart is big, your confidence is big and your enthusiasm is B-I-G.  Plus, as you like to remind us, it helps that you are “super fast”. I’m praying that as you get older, you are always able to see the amazingness that is KJ.  The perfection to which God has designed you.  Never let anyone tell you that you are “too small”.  You are just right for whatever purpose the Lord has set before you in this world.  Your Daddy and I pray all the time we’ll be able to mold and shape you just as you for that purpose. And I’m so glad I get to be along for the ride while you discover it.
Love you with all my heart, sweet boy, my BIG 6-year-old!
Momma

come what MAY

May.
Wowzers.
So, when we put our house on the market in March we decided that if it didn’t sell before baby C was born, we would take a break for the summer and maybe try to sell it again in the fall.  Because who in their right mind would try to move with a newborn.  Welp. After only a few days home from the hospital we got a call that the last person to see the house BEFORE CTL was born, wanted to buy it.  AND we decided if we’re going to get out, lets do it fast.  So we had 30 day close.  Yep, WHIRLWIND. 
So, amidst the craziness of packing, we spent lots of time in May just soaking up our time with this little fella. 
Who at this particular stage we affectionately referred to as our Muppet. C’mon you know you can’t look at those long skinny legs and not start singing “Am I maaannnnn, or I am I Muppet?  If I’m a man, I’m a Muppet of a man”.  Love ya buddy, but wow those legs.

We had lots of help “welcoming” him, from his big sibs, too.  They LOVED playing with him, singing to him and loving on him.   

 

And the big kids were pretty patient, too, through all of the craziness.  Which is why on more than one occasion, RRL rewarded them with special family fun times.
Like the evening he came home with new water guns and we chased each other around the yard before bed.
Or when he created the Nerf war challenge course in the middle of our home with the 1/2 packed boxes and furniture.

 We were also thankful for good help from family while we moved and adjusted to life as family of 6.
obviously we needed the help.  Because when left to their own devices, these rascals came up with all kinds of craziness.
One word for May would be CRAZY.  But I can’t imagine life any other way.  Because around here, craziness=smothered in love.  And would ya just look at this Mother’s Day loving I got.
No less than 1200283846 times, in public, I’ve heard “WOW, you have your hands full.” And all 1200283846 times my answer is the same. “Yes, I do.  Full of BLESSINGS…very full”
ABL



Home

If home is where the heart is,
then I know exactly where mine (on this earth) can be found.

That’s good to remember, too.
Because I had thought that by the time we packed baby C up to come home,
there was a chance we might not live in this same house,
the same house to which we brought home all 3 of his “bigs”.
And that was nearly enough to send me right on over the emotional cliff.
  
While I really am so thankful that we got to walk up the same sidewalk, stand on the same front porch and enter through the same front door with C baby, 
I couldn’t help but be reminded that wherever these blessings are (and their handsome Daddy),
 THAT will be where my home is.
A timely reminder since it does seem that a move to a new house is imminent for us
(because it makes complete sense to sell your house and move with three small children and a newborn, right?)
So, baby brother, whatever our address may be…welcome home!
Welcome to being doted on and adored.
Welcome to the chaos, our own little circus.
Welcome to our hearts.
(You sister loves you so much she is willing to share her baby with you, her other baby. Baby brother, meet Charlotte.)
Welcome home.
WE LOVE YOU!
 ABL

Baby Brothers Big Day

Baby C’s arrival was fairly uneventful.  And given our history, that is actually a really good thing.
I will say- I don’t believe ANY of the old wives tales about how to induce labor (especially ones that involve eating or drinking something nasty).  EXCEPT, I’m inclined to give some credence to one new one.  If you write a blog post about your baby NOT being born, they will likely come very soon.  I didn’t have a blog when KJ was born, but it certainly worked with CbugWorked with Lou.  AND worked with Baby Brother (who still doesn’t have an official blog name).

I will not comment about whether or not the random lady on yahoo message board (via Google search) was actually fairly accurate on diagnosing my early signs of labor.  Coincidence, surely!  And a little creepy.

So, I wrote a post on Thursday morning that you should go back and read if you missed it at the time because it is quite hilarious that he was born hours later.  When I wrote it, I sincerely had ZERO indication that we were any closer to meeting our angel boy.  I worked on Thursday, came home and rested a bit while the kids took naps, and then cooked dinner.  Normal Thursday stuff.

Then, as we were finishing up dinner I started feeling funny.  And that’s really all it was, just a funny feeling.  And then I noticed some leaking water (posts about birth are the only time it is acceptable to type such a sentence). But still wasn’t having contractions.  I didn’t want to alert RRL, but I did say maybe we should start gathering some of our things just in case.  About 7/7:30, after RRL and I finished cleaning up the kitchen, getting kids bathed and starting circle time, we decided we better call someone to stay with the bigs (thanks, Hatch and Grammy).  I still wasn’t experiencing regular contractions, but was more and more convinced things were getting started and that my water had broken.  Given our history (especially Cbug’s quick arrival), we decided better safe than sorry and headed out the door to the hospital.

We arrived at the hospital, hung out, got checked in, sent some texts and argued with the nurses about whether I needed an IV port (I lost and have a painful bruise to prove it- a completely useless bruise, I might add, since we never used the IV). I continued to just have some intermittent contractions.
Around 9:30pm business got started, I (once again) couldn’t believe I was dumb enough to do this unmedicated, and started trying to visualize my first moments of meeting my son.  I remember repeating (not sure if it was out loud or not), “I’ll have a baby boy in my arms so soon”.  I also remember at one point saying to the nurse, “I’m pretty sure HE IS STUCK.”  And at the time I was fully convinced he might never get unstuck.

But soon he was “unstuck” indeed.  At 10:22 pm (nice round military time- 22:22) he arrived.  From the time my contractions were consistent and I was considered in “active labor” things progressed so quickly that the on call doctor made it into the room just in time to clean-up the mess.  There were several comments made about a nurse delivering the baby.  While I’d prefer to think that I delivered him, she was very helpful and encouraging through the process.  So, for those keeping track at home…that’s Doctors 2, Nurses 2 for Team L baby deliveries.

Because RRL and I had both had dreams in recent weeks that we were surprised by the birth of GIRL instead of a boy, I asked pretty quickly for assurance that we could keep calling him “Christopher”.  I was assured that he was a he, an absolutely healthy and perfect baby boy.  His head was seriously fake it was so round and wonderful.  And the first moments with him were even better than I imagined during labor.  A rumor tells me that a certain celebrity may have “needed” a $30,000 “push present”.  While I’m sure something sparkly added glamour to her hospital stay, kissing this sweet head was absolutely all the reward I needed.

It is pretty amazing that in this moment, just like I documented with his sister, the rest of the world fades away.  And amazingly, the labor pains that were only minutes in the past did not seem like they were so bad after all.  “This little life is a treasured blessing.  And he’s ours.  Wow, oh wow.”  That’s pretty much all I was thinking.
This next kiss was pretty great, too.  I absolutely cannot imagine delivery without RRL.  So supportive, so encouraging.  He was AMAZING.  Good thing he didn’t listen to my irrational request to do it alone.  Shew.
And here’s what the newest MALE member of our family thinks about parents k-i-s-s-i-n-g.  I think he’ll fit right in at our house. 
What an amazing day.  One I’ll likely not ever forget.
But just in case I do,
its now officially BLOGGED.
ABL

The countdown: Nesting and other irrational behaviors

The thing I both love and hate about Google is that if you look hard enough you can surely find someone that agrees with you or validates you. There is someone out there that can take your symptoms or concerns and diagnose them exactly the way you had hoped.

Which is why it may or may not have been a TERRIBLE idea for me to Google “Early signs of labor” yesterday. I was 3 days away from my due date and I just needed to find someone who could tell me that what I’ve been feeling (which actually amounts to not very much at all), is DEFINITELY a SIGN that our sweet baby boy will be here soon. Surely there was someone who could take my symptoms (or lack there of) and accurately predict when our son will be born.

And, true to Google form, I found someone. On a random message board I read that one person described her journey toward active labor this way:
“With my second, labor started via radiating pains in my hips and lower back on Tuesday, nothing but crankiness on Wednesday and horrible contractions on Thursday morning that felt like I was being stabbed (baby was born 5 hours later on that day).”
SWEET. I actually did have random pains in my hip on TUESDAY and was super cranky on Wednesday. This must be a SIGN. But guess what? This is Thursday. And so far- nada.

Which reminds me. There is no such thing as a reliable crystal ball…even on Google. And it appears that our oldest son’s constant mantra of “Only God knows when baby C will come” is very true. Shockingly. I wonder how our 5-year-old got to be so wise? It certainly must be his amazing parents, the same ones that were Googling their symptoms.

The funny thing about trying to find an answer on Google is that it is so different the “normal me.” It actually makes me laugh to think I could know in my head that I would not find something there that could predict CT’s arrival, yet I had such urgency about the search.

The end of pregnancy is funny that way. There are so many ways in which my head and logic are completely disconnected from my actions. In my searches yesterday, I found this hilarious article about “early signs of labor”.  And I loved the funny spin it put on the last days of pregnancy.  So, I thought it might be fun/funny to document a few of my own irrational behaviors from the last few days.

1) A couple of weeks ago I remembered that I had a pair of linen maternity pants. Where in the world were those? Why haven’t I been wearing them? Instead of waiting until morning to find them, I decided to get up in the middle of the night, go into the attic, dig around in my rubbermaid storage bins, and find the missing pants and take them to the laundry room to be washed. Absolutely COULD.NOT.WAIT until morning and let RRL help.

2) And you can bet that they were washed quickly because I’m nearly in a panic if I leave the house in the mornings without having all of the laundry clean, folded and put away. Because how in the WORLD will anyone be able to find clothes for my babies if everything is not in their drawers/closets. Which reminds me, maybe I need to go ahead and layout some outfits for each of them. I wish I was kidding.

3) On Sunday we met some friends for dinner at the park. The picnic was at the other end of the park from our house, maybe a mile away. So, like any reasonable person at this stage in pregnancy whose husband is at work- I decided we would walk. As if trying to keep up with two boys on bicycles while pushing a stroller full of our Princess and our picnic stuff wasn’t silly enough, the whole way there I nearly worked myself into a frenzy thinking of all of the “what-ifs” concerning going into labor while walking through the park. None of which, thankfully, actually happened.

4) When I purchased milk on Monday, I noticed that the expiration date was May 6th. More than a WEEK after C’s due date. I cannot tell you all of the intense emotions that came holding this gallon of milk, standing in Braum’s, thinking about how it expired in May. MAY for crying out loud.

5) On Tuesday, I felt the sudden urgency to have a stocked fridge and freezer in case anyone was staying at our house while I wasn’t there. So, I took all 3 kids and my very pregnant self to the grocery store. During nap time. Because this absolutely COULD.NOT.WAIT. Obviously, my friends, my mom and mother-in-law have NEVER shopped for groceries before and definitely could not find their own way to the closest walmart (less than 1 mile from our house).

6) And because we had a stocked fridge and freezer, I determined that it would only make sense to type up two pages of notes on meals. Including a menu and recipes for all dinners for the next week. AND it gets better…I also included a chart on how to pack lunches for the kids to take to school. A chart. With three columns. Main course, fruits/veggies, and a snack. Does this sound necessary to anyone else? Helpful? Maybe. URGENT? Maybe not. Because we would definitely leave our children overnight with someone who is not capable of packing a lunch without a table of directions. Good thing I got that cleared up.

7) Then I decided that a table of how to pack lunches would be completely useless without TWO DOZEN peanut butter and jelly sandwiches in the freezer. You know, in case each of our children eat EIGHT sandwiches during the time I am away from the house and anyone else there is unable to make more.

8) AND THE VERY BEST ONE for the finale. RRL and I had a difficult conversation this week about the overwhelming reality that we will soon have FOUR children. We were talking through all of the emotions that comes with that. Of course there is joy in knowing that the Lord created this little one, but it was good for us to talk about the fact that deep-down there are some emotions that don’t quite equal joy. We know it will also be hard at times. It really was a necessary conversation and will be so beneficial to us as we continue to work hard at being united on the parenting front. That said, maybe it would have been better to talk through some of that a few weeks ago, before my current state of complete irrationality landed in our home. Mid-conversation I actually said something like “FINE. If you can’t be more supportive and excited about this, I’d rather just DO IT BY MYSELF.” Right. I’ll just drive myself to the hospital, encourage and support myself through labor and bring home our newborn ALONE. That would be so much easier. Luckily, that is not how the conversation ended. And thankfully, he knows how I really feel. RRL is my favorite team-mate and my biggest supporter and fan. HOW.IN.THE.WORLD could I do this without him? Sorry, Babe! PLEASE COME WITH ME. Please.

Obviously there have been the normal nesting things like washing all of Christopher’s clothes, blankets and burp rags. Being sure diapers are accessible, pacifiers are sanitized, etc. Possibly this urge to prepare is because there is so little control I have right now over the process the body is going through to prepare. Which is truly miraculous indeed!  It really is such a sweet feeling to know soon baby C will be here and none of this will even matter. While we wait, I guess I’ll just keep writing long blog-posts, building necessary spreadsheets and organizing areas of our house that can.not.wait another minute. Because once he arrives, I plan to do nothing but snuggle his sweetness and eat frozen peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.

ABL

Wedding weekend

A piece of me will always picture him this way.  The littlest cowboy that followed us around, that stood at the door and cried when we left him behind, that was gullible enough to believe some of our antics.
Then we blinked.  And he grew up.  He grew into this handsome man, this strong yet tender-hearted Air Force hero that I am so proud to call my brother.  There’s no one in the world like him, and I was tempted to believe there would be no one in the world good enough to marry him.
But it turns out, I was wrong.
On a day we’ll never forget, my brother and I that once tortured him, were privileged to stand as witnesses as RRL performed the ceremony of this amazing couple.  AND I GOT ANOTHER SISTER!  YAY!
We were all in the wedding. 
Two ring bearers, a flower girl, a (very pregnant) bridesmaid and the “minister” for the ceremony.
 

And it made it all the sweeter that my other brother and my sister-in-law were part of the “party” as well.
DandD were so sweet to include our kiddos in a special way, despite their young age and short attention span.  So we worked hard to keep them entertained through all of the festivities.
Rock paper scissors
 
And a new invention…hand tag
(some quick mom thinking when my boys thought it would be fun to run through all of the wedding guests playing “tag” lead to this game that at least kept them all in one place for a little while).  Thanks to Aunt S for joining in.
And THEN we got to celebrate.
We celebrated with DANCING!
(love D’s “party shirt” that was hiding under his dress uniform)
AND TREATS! 
(which obviously, neither of the boys enjoyed one bit…sorry rented tuxedos)

Baby C cooperated, too, and let us make it through the wedding without being too “eventful”, but by the end of it, this was about all I had left.  I wish RRL could have carried me to bed, too, Lou. 

I can’t believe Lt D is married!  But I’m so thankful for the bride he chose.  There has been a lot to take pride in as he has accomplished much over the years, but this was one of his shining moments.  What a joy and privilege to get to be part of it.
ABL

MARCH on

So, here are some highlights for March.  What a month!  And I thought this was going to be our “down-time” before baby arrival.  The March opener at the hospital ended that dream in a quick hurry.  But we did have some fun!

It’s a GIRL PARTY
Lou learned the art of the “Shower”
or as she would say “The GUHL PAH-TEE”
Twice she got to attend events filled with presents and treats and NO BOYS and our little social princess decided there could be NOTHING better.

First, she got to be center stage to celebrate her baby brother.  My sweet friends from work threw a shower for baby C at a little tea room near us, and invited Lou to join us.  She got to leave pre-school in the middle of the day, order her own lunch, eat a cupcake AND open baby C’s presents.  Yep, GUHL PAH-TEEs are F-U-N!

 Her second round was to celebrate the addition of another famale to my family HOORAY for sister-in-laws.  I’ve got two fantastic ones!  Lou loved playing games, snuggling with her Nonna, helping D open presents and of course…eating cupcakes!

NONNA’s BIRTHDAY
And while they were in town for D’s shower, we also got to celebrate my Momma’s birthday with my parents.  What a treat to have them!

NEW SHOES
The next March occurrence may not seem all that noteworthy.
Unless you have boys.  Boys who can wear out clothes and shoes like it IS THEIR JOB.
Seriously, my boys can get holes even in their PAJAMA pants for cryin’ out loud.
So, its quite noteworthy that they received these AWESOME spiderman shoes in March.
I mean what could be better to a boy than combining 1) shoes that make you run fast with 2) spiderman.
I’ll tell you what could be better- spiderman shoes that make you run fast AND last 8 solid months.  Seriously, as I write this post (in December) the boys are STILL wearing these shoes.  They’ve worn them nearly every day for 8 months.  Granted they are getting too small now, but still that’s got to be some kind of record for us.

A PARK DAY
With pretty weather in March and Cbug feeling better, we were able to soak up a little more sunshine in March.  I was happy to do it because  it got us out of the house and I didn’t know how much longer we’d be able to have these walks to the park since our house was for sale. 

And while we were there I took one of those pictures that make you realize why it is you feel SO HUGE…because you ARE so huge!  Cbug, are you under there?

And there you have it-
a SUPER quick March through March.
Good thing we have on our fast shoes.
ABL

Does God care about my 1/2 Marathon?

I believe that the Lord cares deeply about each of us. 
I believe that he knows the number of our days and how we will spend them.
I believe he knows me far better than I know myself.
Down to the very number of hairs on my head.
I believe he loves me in a way I’ll never fully comprehend, this side of Heaven.
I believe He cares.
But I can’t really say whether I believe He cares that I ran a half marathon in my seventh month of pregnancy.
Surely He has bigger fish to fry.
However, I am more convinced than ever that he can use even 13.1 miles of exercise to reveal Himself.
Because He cares.
For months I’ve worked hard to complete something.  Not something that would break any records or that would be all that noteworthy.  Just a personal goal.  Something I needed in this fourth pregnancy.  Something that I wanted to do JUST FOR ME.
I wanted to run (or at least walk/run) a 1/2 marathon in my third trimester.
It was just something to work toward. Something to be healthy. An excuse to breathe in the sunshine (or the moonlight) several times a week. Often alone, sometimes with fellow-runner-encouragers, but always just to enjoy the miles.
And then February happened.  And February was hard.  It was really hard.  It was busy because, for most of the month, we had 6 small children in our home again (plus one tiny one growing inside of me).  But more than that it was emotionally exhausting.  There were tough decisions that RRL and I had to make, ones no one should have to face.  And therefore, not a lot of sleep. 
Definitely not any running.
So, for the three weeks leading up to my big “goal” I didn’t run a step.  Not one.
And a few days before the race, I’ll admit to being discouraged.
I know it is silly, it was just another run, but for some reason the thought of missing it meant so much more to me at that point. I began to pray “Lord, I don’t know if this race means anything to you.  I honestly don’t.  But, would you please redeem the miles”  I prayed that somehow, though it defied all “training tips”, though I hadn’t exercised in weeks, though I was getting further and further along in pregnancy, that somehow I would feel better this day running than ever.  I think deep down, I was praying that He would give RRL and I the chance to enjoy that 13.1 together.  I was praying that this run would be a marker at the end of another (or continuing) tough time to redeem the times we had to give up time together.  Not because we deserved that or were entitled to that.  Just because it was something we had looked forward to and we were really ready for something to just be FUN.  I didn’t really care if we ran fast.  I just wanted to finish.  To enjoy it.  Together.
And you know what, WE DID!  We finished the 1/2 marathon much faster than I anticipated.  There were some difficult moments, we were definitely sore afterward, but there was so much about it that was just plain FUN!  It wasn’t our fastest 1/2 (by a long shot) but crossing the finish line, holding RRL’s hand, Christopher snug in my belly, was definitely my proudest race finish (by a long shot).  I cried.  And couldn’t help but throw my hands in the air in thanksgiving and praise as we crossed the final threshold. 
(And I loved that moment so much, I’m even willing to show you this quite unattractive picture, belly poking out and all…the closest thing to a “belly shot” you’ll see on this piece of the www).
The even cooler thing, though, is that it wasn’t just fun.  It was healing.  Around the same time, our preacher started a series called “The Race”.  I’ve loved hearing about the parallels he saw from running to our “Race” as Christians.  Especially in this season it was something I could identify with.  And it made this 1/2 marathon finish mean even more to me. 
That said, you should definitely use this link to download “The Race” podcasts ASAP. 
Thanks to RA’s encouragement to examine our life race and this timely personal metaphor, here’s what I’ve learned:
– Sometimes the time for training you have in one season, is to prepare you for a completely different one.  Maybe, just like He used the miles I had put in months before the half marathon, God can take scriptures we’ve memorized, prayers we’ve prayed, relationships we have formed, faith heroes we’ve studied and use them during the seasons that are crazy, those in which we have little time to “train”.  Continued training is important, but He is the source of the energy and strength when its really time to hit the pavement and RUN.
– Sometimes my “running anyway” isn’t for me at all.  Sometimes it is to encourage someone else.  I can’t tell you how many times someone along the race course, noting my bouncing belly and sign on my back indicating our fourth “baby on board”, said something to the effect of “if SHE can finish this, so can I”.  I want to run life that way.  Authentically enough to let people know I’m not perfect, but bravely enough to let them know I’m running anyway.
– Sometimes I need the “us” in Hebrews 12:1 as much as I need the “perseverance”.  And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. -NLT  I wouldn’t have attempted this 13.1 if it weren’t for the encouragement of knowing that RRL was going to stick right by my side for every step.  Even though the pace would be much slower than he was capable of, he had promised to stay with me and I knew he would remind me the whole way of the goal.  He does that in our life race as well.  RRL points me to the goal, which makes the endurance come more easily.  And I love running together.
– And on that note, and maybe more than anything else I learned, I needed a good swift kick in the “my-race-ain’t-so-bad” pants.  As we worked through “The Race” series at church and learned about faith heroes (in the Bible and living among us today), I had to admit I’ve got much to be thankful for when it comes to the particular course that I’ve been set on.  And I’m gonna keep running it.  I might even get really crazy once in a while, throwing my hands in the air with praise and thanksgiving just to say “this is awesome” (even if it means letting some of my “imperfections” hang out a little).
So, I don’t know if God cares about a 1/2 marathon. 
But I know He gave me that 13.1 miles of fun with the guy I love.
And used it to bring me a few steps closer to Himself, as well. 
So.
Thank you, Lord.
Thank you that you’ve used that special day to reveal so much to me.
Thank you for teaching me about this life RACE.
For loving me.
Just because. 
You care.

ABL

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